WARNING VERRY DETAILED(not sutible for younger children)

okay...sooo i made this song/poem a couple months ago now i was really struggeling with some things from my past, and what were happend at that time, i think i might have been on drugs when i made this the poem has been alterd and parts have been cut out for gorey or personal reasons, but most of this is my life and what had happend, what my friends where doin at the time,i also gave it to my mom as a suicide letter had the cops escort me home..... and so on and so forth,, pls dont judge me or think im crazy


Dont Judge Me For Everything

Most days i wish i was never born
I wish i was that unborn baby that died
inside the stomach of a thirteen year old
and when i came out i fell into the F*cken toilet
and was flushed away, carried away, taken away
that way i wouldent have to feel the pain i would feel
when i was born.

I wouldent have to picture myself 15 sittin on top
of a bridge with slit wrists, and f*cken blood running,
and its pouring, its rainin, i could just slip away.

I wasent f*cken planned my f*cken daddy din't want me,
thats why he left, walked out the door,
Siannara baby goodbye, i hate to see you cry but i dont
wanna be a f*cken family no more, You f*cken coward,
I saw you walk out that door, And man after you used to
be a whore, Now look whats your baby gunna be?
cant you see,

You and mom will have to scrape her off a highway, or peel her off a f*ucken
road where she fell and died, Take the knife outa her throte so she couldent cry
find the blood between her legs and know befour she died she was raped,
scraped ....

got in a f*cken scrap learned to rap, your f*cken daughter was a G'
but you wouldent see you had to just leave her be.
She's a f*cken alcoholic and died, she overdosed on pure f*cken Alcohol B!tch,
Give me some XTC(extacy) i'll take 10 caps see what it does to me,
i can feel the heroin in my vains, that shit i havent done in 3 days,

But its still there, You notice it, it will always be there, but
befour i die i'll fucken break into a bitches house, slit
some throtes hang the from the roof,
then i'll go back the next night, and you better be sayin your prayers tonight,
i'll paint there f*cken walls with blood, i'll kill her unborn child, and
slit his throte, i'll make her cry and then she'll die,
i'll hang her from a rope, then i pce

When i go to the morge after im dead, the cases will open
and i'll be raped again even after im f*cken dead,
I'll scream inside, but i wont be able to hide.
and so your all at my funeral mournin my death, but i dont want that,
you cheat death, i want you all to go home and drink your sorrrows away,
Let a mother f*cker p!ss on my grave, im not really there, i was never there
i was already dead, burned f*cken alive, from all the lies,

So there, there's no real body just an empty casket,
almost like i was never made, my mom and dad planned my brother
and daddy stayed, they all lived happily ever after
B!TCH THATS HOW IT WAS MADE!!