AAAHHHHHH im sooo angry today i hate this stupid fricking gay day like the worst my brother is always treating me like shit like seriously i dont even know how longer i can take it i actually wanted to punch him in the face really hard and i would have enjoyed it i should feel liek this towards my brother but he makes me crazy ...and my lil sister is always giving me sooo much adittuide like shes only seven but i dont shes soo smart for her age and very spoiled so like i dont even know how to control her like she just dosent litsen....and like im used to being in my own space or having my own space to go when i feel like this but my room is being occuppied at the moment and its really hard for me like i love vicky and all but i hate feeling like this and like people just have been giving me trouble ever since i got up and like befour i accpeted god into my life the never did this because they were scared i'd run off or do somthing eles but know they know im not gunna do that so i feel liek there taking advantage of me like when i was like that i would have like punch my brother yelled and sweared at my mom just blowen up right but im trying to be good...follow YHVW's rules and shit but omg its soooo hard i feel liek im gunna break like i dont even know what to do i want to call somone but i hate bothering people with my problems like it seems like i always have so many problems all the time ...i wish i could just ......i dont know...fuck the world

YEAH greatest day lol...i slep over at my friend amys house last night(lives next door) haha...and we had STUFFED TOMMATOS crazy eh soo good tho..and a whole pinapple, woke up in such a good mood like unbeliveabley good mood...did VBS then picked up vicky got a really COOL poster...my best friend died in march her mom and my mom are like best friends ever since there were 10 i think but anyways it was really exciting....then i went to my and berecahs lil dock and tanned and spent time with jesus...stopped by at berecahs ...then left with amy to the prayer room ...then like jim, berecah, nicole, chella met us there we were goin to gfo to glad tidings but they were at willows beach...the others dint wanna come so me and amy went lol we met these cool foreigners.....lol SOOO cool amy aske done of them if she could play his guitar..and he let her and we were like singin godly songs and stuff but then she broke his guitar sting :( really sad...then we played moon walked race with this homless guy named edmond...it was really cool he dint knwo how to moon walk tho but yeah had a GREAt day....................

So Today has been a really good day mostly lol did VBS then Cleaned my VERY messy room lol now it looks perfect for my company thats coming down form nanimo im so excited:):)...but i'v really been struggeling with some things in my past these past couple days like really badley, and today i was talking with a friend ...and like at first what they told me dint bother me but i kinda thought about it and now its really discouraging because if they can slip (which dosent really seem like them) then i defently can and im like prone to sliping lol so i just went to the prayer rooms for a while and prayed about it and like everything thats bothering me and i feel a bit better i believe in myself, i beleive that i can do this and if i slip i'll learn from my mistake and i know that god will forgive me...but another thing thats bothering me is hiding somthing from somone thats really close to me i feel like im living a double life but im only doing it to protect them like if i told them what i had done it would break there heart and like they'd be mad, disapointed, mabey reject me for a while and i really don't want that were gettin along soo well right now better then ever..and i dont want to ruin it i know i will have to tell sooner or later but i really dont feel like its the time right now, but if i dont say somthing now i might be making the hugest mistake ...it might hurt them more later than now an di just dont know...i feel like crying everytime i think about it...they things people do befour they find god ...i dont know what to do....

Crazzzzzy...okay so its been a while since i posted....okay so on friday i ended up watching movies with a couple people then Me, Beracah, Kyle, Jim, Scott, Tasha, and joey all went to the prayer room....from like 1-4 AM!!!....crazy night like i mean crazy so much partying , Me and tasha and joey and scott quickly went to the whale wall to try and find my friends mom who's been on the streets and that is dying from using...but we din't find her it was kinda weird tho because we met this mexican guy and like i just stop doing like bad things and like the whole night was about temptation like the mexican guy offerd us weed, we of course said no...LIKE hello goin to the prayer room high yeah right?....and then like about an hour or so into being there i went outside to get some air i was really feeling overwhelmed being in there...and while i was out there i met this guy that lived in the ARC we talked alot about god and like how being on the street wasent fun and i thought he thought i was homeless hehe...but anyways befour i went back inside ANOTHER temptation :(:(:( He offered me a smoke and like it had only been a lil while since i quit...so it was really hard but i managed to say NO!!! thank you...lol....Then me and tasha had gone to the store and on the way back we met this guy OMG he was kinda creepy ...he was like he ladies mind if we walk and smoke...and like TEMPTATIONS GLORE!! at first we were like no thanks and stuff but he kept pressing on like wanting us to smoke it was really weird...i took like a puff :( bad me i know but i was like no i can tdo this...and so we walked back to the prayer rooms and we were talkin about god and this guy like he was making nooo sence ONE: he was drunk, TWO: he was high to...so like he kept saying we were god because god was in us...and like he kept sayin not to judge him ...we invited him in and that went a lil crazy like he was yelling and berecah and tasha and saying he was gunna puch jim in the face its was a lil scary...but he finnally left saying that he hated us but loved us really weird but yeah...that was that night....crazy night i tell you

End of Days??

So i was reading this with my mom and thought i would share it with whoever i could...:) Enjoy

6 Days of Creation = 6000 Years; 7th Day Sabbath (Rest) - 1000 Years (Millennium).= total 7000
For a thousand years in thy sight are but as yesterday when it is past, and as a watch in the night.
Ps 90:4
But, beloved, be not ignorant of this one thing, that one day is with the Lord as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day. 2 Pet 3:8
For in six days the LORD made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that in them is, and rested the seventh day: wherefore the LORD blessed the Sabbath day, and hallowed it. Exod 20:11
In Bereshith (Genesis) and Shemot (Exodus), we are told how YHVH made all things in six days, and on the Seventh Day (Shabbat-Sabbath) He ceased from His labour. Why did He do this? YHVH set up the seven-day Divine Plan within which the Messianic Redemption would be fulfilled according to the promise made to the Patriarch Abraham:. In Abraham's "SEED" shall ALL the nations of the earth be Blessed (Gn 22:18; Gn 26:4).
YHVH foreknew precisely what He was going to accomplish before His Divine Plan of Redemption was commenced. I am YHVH, and there is none else; I am YHVH, and there is none like Me, DECLARING THE END FROM THE BEGINNING, and from ancient times the THINGS THAT ARE NOT YET DONE, saying, My counsel shall stand, and I WILL DO ALL MY PLEASURE: Calling a ravenous bird from the east, the man that executes My counsel from a far country: yea, I HAVE SPOKEN IT, I WILL ALSO BRING IT TO PASS; I HAVE PURPOSED IT, I WILL ALSO DO IT. Isa 46:8-11
Unto me, the most inferior of all saints, was this Grace given, that I should preach among the nations the unsearchable riches of the Messiah, and to enlighten all to the administration of THE MYSTERY WHICH HAS BEEN HIDDEN SINCE THE BEGINNING OF THE WORLD BY YHVH, who Created all things through Yesuah; according to THE DIVINE PLAN OF THE AGES which he purposed in YHVH, Yeshuah the messiah, our Lord. Eph 3:8-9,11
YHVH Creation was to echo Redemption by defining a "day" as 1000 years (Ps 90:4; 2 Pet 3:8 quoted above). From beginning to end, it was determined by YHVH that mankind was to have only 6 "days" (6000 years) to live out his time on earth. On the Seventh Day, the "Day" of the Lord (Millennium), Yesuah Himself would intervene into human affairs and usher-in the Kingdom of YHVH on the earth.
Our Father in the Heavens, Hallowed be Your Name. Let Your Kingdom come. Let Your Will be done as in theHeavens, so also on the earth. Matt 6:9-13