So Today has been a really good day mostly lol did VBS then Cleaned my VERY messy room lol now it looks perfect for my company thats coming down form nanimo im so excited:):)...but i'v really been struggeling with some things in my past these past couple days like really badley, and today i was talking with a friend ...and like at first what they told me dint bother me but i kinda thought about it and now its really discouraging because if they can slip (which dosent really seem like them) then i defently can and im like prone to sliping lol so i just went to the prayer rooms for a while and prayed about it and like everything thats bothering me and i feel a bit better i believe in myself, i beleive that i can do this and if i slip i'll learn from my mistake and i know that god will forgive me...but another thing thats bothering me is hiding somthing from somone thats really close to me i feel like im living a double life but im only doing it to protect them like if i told them what i had done it would break there heart and like they'd be mad, disapointed, mabey reject me for a while and i really don't want that were gettin along soo well right now better then ever..and i dont want to ruin it i know i will have to tell sooner or later but i really dont feel like its the time right now, but if i dont say somthing now i might be making the hugest mistake ...it might hurt them more later than now an di just dont know...i feel like crying everytime i think about it...they things people do befour they find god ...i dont know what to do....