Wow it's been a while

hmm this sucks my profile sucks.... well i had surgery like 2 weeks ago and am finally feeling alive, i quit smokine because i was rushed to the hospital on day three after my surgery because well im deathly allergic to nicotien...i used a fuckin patch sweet right??....hmmm yeah and my throte started hemeraging like 4 days ago that was fucking scary i almost shit myself...half a cup full of blood and i ended up swollowing 7 full beautiful mouthfulls of the shit too....i also found out like 5 days ago that clayton...my fiance/boyfriend...w/e you wanna call him...got really drunk and him and lauren kissed...thats awsome right?? you know TASHA'S BESTEST friend lauren i think we all know who im talking about...what a bitch...she can do shit with whatever guy she wants and she sure dose but she has to go for clayton too right the rest arnt good enough???....i love life dosent everyone!!! yeah me and tasha prolly arnt gunna be friends for much longer either because of lauren..what a fucking whore...oh yeah and the place they kissed was the place me and clayton want to get married at he was showing her all of our options, and she now works and blends coffee shop, mine and claytons FAAAVV coffee place, like serioulsy this bittch needs to leave...go back to vancouver and ruin peoples lifes there...but w.e clayton knows the owner to blends coffee shop , they actullly just found out that they might be related soo i dont see us having any probs with ""LAUREN"' .....ohhh yes i forgot im also moving out im excited woooo wooo hoooo yep but we havent found a place and clayton has bad credit so were havin a fucking hard time cause every place dose credit checks and everytime somone looks into your cedit it knocks off a fuckin point for you....fuckin bastards....my life rocks right now it really dose can you read the enthusiasim in my fingers?? i think not....i think im turning into an alcoholic too, i drink lots....hmmm mabey i should stop and think about what im doin??.......thinking.....naww thinking sucks just brings back memories anyways bye for now