Thursday, November 09, 2006

So yeah im sitting in class im doin this gay project we have to research a poet and do a 45 min presentation im soo not happy about it, it suppose to be in partners to and im all alone, ....theres so much work to be done too, and shes seems to be giving everyone eles info but me...i dont think she likes me very much......like this is gay and i dont want to present it in front of the class like its stupid :(:(:(:(....and yeah...so, anyways...i havent slept in like a weeek its fuckin stupid liek im soo grouchy too, and like okay i have seasonal depression so like i get all moody and sad and like lets go cut my wrists type thing along with i dont get to sleep either...and i get bad visions and if i get dreams there bad...like very bad....i dont know what to do...i dont think anyone takes me seriously either....but im goin to go to my doctor and get proper sleeping meds that way i'll be able to sleep, or i was thinking just buy a bottle of gravil and take one everynight with my melatonin...cause i'v done that a few times and it works sooo well, other than i always have a pretty bad headache in the morning....im just not doing very good i hate it soo much i just wanna sleep and like die....that would be good...but i guess i cant do that now can i?? ....dom, crystal, beccah, and asia, and hannah i think are all coming down tommoro...im excited but i thought i would eb more excited...i only get excited somtimes....and other times i just wanna go lay down and sleep and like never wake up i know im not gunna get much sleep when there here and im scared that theres gunna be a little fight not saying names but well yall know who you are...and yeah its gunna be tiering i have to work friday and sunday i think but i get saturday off i have to work from 4-5:40 though oh yay!!! im sooo excited about that but at least i get off at 5:40 which is okay cause my brothers b-day party is at 6:00 so it should be fine/....
anyways im off post laters bye@

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

ILOVEYOU!!!
you are beautiful and
we all miss you and you
should write another blog
about life now love ya see
ya soon in decmber are you coming?

ttyl lovers you

Unknown said...

We all have bad times, I went through depression and dark times living in England, it passes and it seems like your doing the right thing by seeking help and putting your feelings down in writing. I always found clearing my head before trying to sleep by writing it in a journal helped, I would write it, tell myself its on paper now so I dont have to think about it and sleep would come easier, may not work for you but whats the harm.

Your true friends will be there for you so keep going Ashley, Michelle has told me of her teen years and she has similar stories to tell of yet teen years so you are not alone by any means.

Unknown said...

I ment ... "of her teen years"